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eggagogo:

jasonviola:

Fear of Flowers Part 1

This is beautiful.

— 9 hours ago with 47982 notes

robotmango:

season ten minus one-eighth: sam’s desperate race to convert the bunker’s tracking system to a demon-sensing frequency is interrupted when dean arrives unexpectedly to raid the fridge. caught in the act with two handfuls of deli ham, dean delivers an impromptu monologue about the healing power of friendship, and insists the mark of cain was a ‘rough patch.’ sam observes that the speech is rendered relatively unconvincing by the bloody handprints on dean’s jacket sleeves. “fine,” dean says. “i think i know a guy who can help, uh, heal me, or whatever.” dean uses his demon powers to transport sam to the mall of america, where instead of meeting a contact, he commits a dine and ditch, abandoning sam in a chain restaurant called “dick’s last resort.” after an hour, there is one new text on sam’s phone. u get it??? hahahaha ur the dick. thnx for the ham. sam deletes dean’s number and checks himself into a hilton.

(via spnwank)

— 9 hours ago with 225 notes
#how have I not seen this before  #caught in the act with two handfuls of deli ham  #I am dying 

heldersangel:

big-ending:

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME

I love this I hope those last two actually get made into shirts

(Source: reddit.com, via vibesopretty)

— 10 hours ago with 615684 notes
proteus7:

nevver:

[to scale]

That puts things in perspective. 

Just imagine how humbling it would be if our Earth was the size of the Sun. The distances between countries would be so vast that we couldn’t visit them even if we spent our whole lives traveling. Entire generations would live and die in the knowledge that they would never see each other. Imagine meeting someone over the internet who lived on the other side of the Sun, and having to live knowing for an absolute fact that you would never have the chance to see their face or hold their hand, feel their breath against your skin. To know that we share a world, yes, the same sky and the same earth, and yet we cannot share each other. A world of such incomprehensible vastness would be so awesome, so tragic. 

proteus7:

nevver:

[to scale]

That puts things in perspective. 

Just imagine how humbling it would be if our Earth was the size of the Sun. The distances between countries would be so vast that we couldn’t visit them even if we spent our whole lives traveling. Entire generations would live and die in the knowledge that they would never see each other. Imagine meeting someone over the internet who lived on the other side of the Sun, and having to live knowing for an absolute fact that you would never have the chance to see their face or hold their hand, feel their breath against your skin. To know that we share a world, yes, the same sky and the same earth, and yet we cannot share each other. A world of such incomprehensible vastness would be so awesome, so tragic. 

(via vibesopretty)

— 11 hours ago with 10382 notes
#solar system  #space  #earth  #planet earth  #the sun 
waterbird13:

queen-of-carven-stone:


"Please tell me, what is the upside to me being alive?" 
"Are you kidding me? You and me, fighting the good fight together."

#whomp there it is #if you want Sam to stay alive #you have to make him want to stay alive #by easing that burden #which Dean obviously doesn’t care enough to do #I wish someone cared enough (via waterbird13)

Because Dean hasn’t reminded Sam of what he perceives as Sam’s failings—including being soulless, being with Ruby, and letting Lucifer out—as recently as the end of season eight. Dean doesn’t lay any of that on Sam, or anything.
Because Dean didn’t allow the possession and take away Sam’s ability to consent in season nine, then act like it was no big deal and Sam’s the messed up one for not forgiving him, putting that on Sam more than himself.
Because Sam’s dead lovers aren’t a constant joke played into repeatedly. Recently, that includes in Pac-Man Fever (when Charlie thanked Dean for saving the world and said to Sam “sorry you have zero luck with the ladies”, which, despite having to know that Sam’s lovers dying has to be painful, Dean does nothing about), and in Rock and a Hard Place (when Sam tries to give a reason for his commitment to chastity, saying his relationships hadn’t ended well, and Dean laughs and says “he ain’t lying”).
Because somehow Sam should just “let go” of traumatizing things like the death of loved ones, the fact that his life is in constant danger, the fact that he’s hated by his community, the fact that he’s been repeatedly violated (by Azazel, Meg, Lucifer, Gadreel, Dean, Becky, Gary, Dean, even Mary, to name a few), and the fact that he carries around memories of centuries of torture and the ensuing breakdown that caused.
Because his community doesn’t constantly remind Sam what they think of him, and Dean doesn’t allow it or anything. Dean doesn’t argue or debate Tracy Bell’s assessment of Sam, he just tells her to focus on the hunt. 
Because Dean’s expectations make perfect sense. I mean, it’s not like he’s fluctuated wildly on what Sam should or should no do for him, like how he yelled when he thought Sam saved him in season four, made Sam promise that they’d let each other die, then crucified Sam for not saving him. Because Dean gives real, clear to understand expectations that, really, are something other than “do what I say, when I say it; be okay with what I do, whatever I do, because I know best.” 
Because it’s not like Sam came very close to killing himself at the end of season eight because he thought that finally, finally, that would allow him to live up to some expectations Dean has of him, to finally impress Dean and get Dean to admire him at least a bit.
Sam’s burdens aren’t just because he’s holding on to things and simplifying them to that is a gross misrepresentation. Sam is reminded constantly of the ones he could possible move on from. Trauma is created; things like this stick with someone forever. But they can (metaphorically) weigh less if someone helps with them. Instead, Dean adds that safe to Sam’s back and helps ensure that none of the others will ever be lifted free.
Dean claims having Sam alive is the most important thing, and maybe it is to him. But he is helping shape a situation wherein Sam is so weighed down that those spikes are piercing him. If he wants Sam to live, he should help him want to live, and that means easing the burdens. That means no more bringing up the past with the aim to hurt; respecting that Sam’s been hurt; respecting Sam’s autonomy; thinking about how he treats Sam; giving reasonable expectations that Sam doesn’t have to practically kill himself to attempt to live up to; and reminding Sam that he is there to help carry this weight, if he should need it. Dean can’t fix everything, and no one is saying he should. But if you want a suicidal person to live, you don’t just pull them back from the edge and call that good enough; you make the situation better so they are willingto live, which Dean seems completely unwilling to do—indeed, he rather pile more on, it seems, then help ease some of the burden that is literally killing Sam.

waterbird13:

queen-of-carven-stone:

"Please tell me, what is the upside to me being alive?"

"Are you kidding me? You and me, fighting the good fight together."

 (via waterbird13)

Because Dean hasn’t reminded Sam of what he perceives as Sam’s failings—including being soulless, being with Ruby, and letting Lucifer out—as recently as the end of season eight. Dean doesn’t lay any of that on Sam, or anything.

Because Dean didn’t allow the possession and take away Sam’s ability to consent in season nine, then act like it was no big deal and Sam’s the messed up one for not forgiving him, putting that on Sam more than himself.

Because Sam’s dead lovers aren’t a constant joke played into repeatedly. Recently, that includes in Pac-Man Fever (when Charlie thanked Dean for saving the world and said to Sam “sorry you have zero luck with the ladies”, which, despite having to know that Sam’s lovers dying has to be painful, Dean does nothing about), and in Rock and a Hard Place (when Sam tries to give a reason for his commitment to chastity, saying his relationships hadn’t ended well, and Dean laughs and says “he ain’t lying”).

Because somehow Sam should just “let go” of traumatizing things like the death of loved ones, the fact that his life is in constant danger, the fact that he’s hated by his community, the fact that he’s been repeatedly violated (by Azazel, Meg, Lucifer, Gadreel, Dean, Becky, Gary, Dean, even Mary, to name a few), and the fact that he carries around memories of centuries of torture and the ensuing breakdown that caused.

Because his community doesn’t constantly remind Sam what they think of him, and Dean doesn’t allow it or anything. Dean doesn’t argue or debate Tracy Bell’s assessment of Sam, he just tells her to focus on the hunt. 

Because Dean’s expectations make perfect sense. I mean, it’s not like he’s fluctuated wildly on what Sam should or should no do for him, like how he yelled when he thought Sam saved him in season four, made Sam promise that they’d let each other die, then crucified Sam for not saving him. Because Dean gives real, clear to understand expectations that, really, are something other than “do what I say, when I say it; be okay with what I do, whatever I do, because I know best.” 

Because it’s not like Sam came very close to killing himself at the end of season eight because he thought that finally, finally, that would allow him to live up to some expectations Dean has of him, to finally impress Dean and get Dean to admire him at least a bit.

Sam’s burdens aren’t just because he’s holding on to things and simplifying them to that is a gross misrepresentation. Sam is reminded constantly of the ones he could possible move on from. Trauma is created; things like this stick with someone forever. But they can (metaphorically) weigh less if someone helps with them. Instead, Dean adds that safe to Sam’s back and helps ensure that none of the others will ever be lifted free.

Dean claims having Sam alive is the most important thing, and maybe it is to him. But he is helping shape a situation wherein Sam is so weighed down that those spikes are piercing him. If he wants Sam to live, he should help him want to live, and that means easing the burdens. That means no more bringing up the past with the aim to hurt; respecting that Sam’s been hurt; respecting Sam’s autonomy; thinking about how he treats Sam; giving reasonable expectations that Sam doesn’t have to practically kill himself to attempt to live up to; and reminding Sam that he is there to help carry this weight, if he should need it. Dean can’t fix everything, and no one is saying he should. But if you want a suicidal person to live, you don’t just pull them back from the edge and call that good enough; you make the situation better so they are willingto live, which Dean seems completely unwilling to do—indeed, he rather pile more on, it seems, then help ease some of the burden that is literally killing Sam.

(Source: superclassyshit, via draculasam)

— 12 hours ago with 7582 notes
#spn wank  #dean hate  #all of this is perfect and s10 does not seem promising 
"Do I Post This Now, or Do I Put It in the Queue?"
an autobiography
— 13 hours ago